Prov. 8:12-14 12. I, wisdom, dwell with prudence, and I find, knowledge and discretion. 13. The fear of the Lord is to hate evil; Pride and arrogance and the evil way and the perverted mouth, I hate. 14. counsel is mine and sound wisdom, I am understanding, power is mine.
I will instruct you and teach you in the way which you should go; I will counsel you with My eye upon you. Psa. 32:8
I spend time in prayer each night, and early in the morning before day breaks, and while in prayer I ask God to instruct me and show where He wants me to move on His path. I used to pray, and then I would move in the direction I believed He was leading me, and I felt powerful in the movement, and was sure that He was guiding me and instructing me along the way. I walked with God.
Since my diagnosis and subsequent cancer journey, I have realized and been awakened to the wisdom that when you pray, you must wait…wait…wait on the Lord, not when you pray, get up and move in the direction of what and where you feel He is leading, or to what you know you need to have happen. He will counsel you, and He will guide you with His eye to His perfect Will. I found that regardless of how I wanted things to move, how fast I wanted to get through to the other side of being infected with something I didn’t know I had, I could not make anything different. What could I do, I had to pray, turn it over to God, and wait on the Him, and be of good courage with patience.
I had no idea that I would see this day, but God knew. He did not speak in my spirit as we usually do together, He was silently at work, I, was truly just the clay and He was the potter.
From the beginning I have described how chemotherapy has affected my body, my mental status, and my ability to endure dark, hard challenges one must face when put to the task. Survival was not a given, not even expected…yet in spite of all the torment, the torture, the agony…God has sustained me. Continue reading “Now I Have OverCome Chemo #5 and Lived To Smile Again”
I remember writing that each one is different. This was #4, and as we move forward, there are things that transpire at one time, that do not follow the same timeline, so as I report the things that I endured through this infusion, I have to also disclose that, the week prior to the infusion, I went to Palliative Care, after seeing my PCP, PA, who informed me that this would be where I could learn to endure some of the side effect that kept me from eating, that affected my constant diarrhea, that kept me dehydrated, where I needed to go in for IV fluids just to keep me from succumbing to the devastating, bedridden lifestyle of which I was growing accustomed. Continue reading “Pressing Forward: I have overcome 4 Aggressive Chemo Infusions.”
On Monday, Dec. 24, 2018, I had an appointment with the PA to my Oncologist, for consultation. It was the holiday, and I was able to have Christmas without being bedridden. The Chemo Infusion team only worked half a day, so patients were able to wait for chemo until the day after the blessed holiday. Continue reading “I Did Chemo Infusion #3 and I am here to tell it.”
I I have been away for a few days, but in that time, reflecting and understanding, and listening and the remembrances of wonderful Christmas memories of days long gone. Continue reading “Reflecting on His Mercy and Glory”
I have been away from blogging since last Tuesday’s Emergency Room visit. I was very dehydrated, so I got IV infused and blood work that showed that I have(still have) pneumonia, UTI, and need to work on eating and drinking. All these are so easy to say, but when the chemo takes effect, so hard to implement. The IV gave me a new boost of energy that has lasted till now, and I have felt strong for the past week. I praise God for that. Continue reading “God Inspired, Moved, and Centered My Life”
Since I went to the ER at UVA, on Tues. Dec. 11, with the IV fluids, I was given there, I have felt so much better, thank God. It took the edge off the weakness, and aches, and body pains. It did not affect the diarrhea, and the pain that goes with that, but I am so much stronger since that night. Continue reading “A Brighter Day”
Last Monday, Dec. 3, 2018, was my 2nd Chemo Infusion Class. I fared really well on Monday, and Tues, I was well enough to go to Dress Rehearsal for our weekend concert, as the prayers we sent up requested. God hears and answers all prayers: Yes, No, or Not Now. He sent a resounding YES!!!. Continue reading “Light Into Darkness”
Monday I had my second chemo infusion. It went two hours less than the first. When the day was done, I felt great, an extension of the blessed week before. Praise God. I am praying that I have this entire week feeling normal enough to attend our “O Come Let Us Adore Him fifth year concert. Continue reading “Chemo Infusion #2 My Second Course”
It took 13 days, 13 days from Nov. 12 – Nov. 25, to get through the gutwrentching, battle of the first Chemo Infusion.